in my dream
January 24th, 2008 by angieliam25
…whew…how one falls in love and falls out of it….how one would die looking for it,while one would just let it die….how each and everyone of us is very much affected by love……well,,here is a story…. In my dream,God told me,that I could pick up a man i like from the fields.But I have to choose only one.Once nakapili na ko,i have to raise my hand and say I finally found him,then go back to God for praise.But he has one condition,na i could never turn back.Once nalampasan ko, I should move forward.Sabi ko,God won’t give me rotten crops of men.I have been a good daughter and I deserve to be with a good man.So my journey began,as i went through the field,nakita ko ang iba’t ibang klase ng lalake.Some were tempting to pick them up.Pero sabi ko,baka may mas gwapo,mas mabait,mas matalino, mas masipag,mas mahal ako sa dulo ng field na to.I let go, once. and even twive. Believing that in the end of the field is my prince,waiting for me.Then I saw a man.He sees me while i was picking up crop in God’s field.He looked at me straight eye. And I don’t know why pero there is something in him that i longed for.Pero di pwede. I have to make it to the end of the field.I have to see the right prince.If habang lumalayo ako,nakakakita ako ng ganitong klase ng lalake,baka in the other end may mas hihigit pa sa kanya.Until, I reached the end of the field.God asked me, "Di ba napakakulit mo,araw araw nagdadasal ka na magkaroon ng partner in life,but ngayon bakit wala kang dala.My crops are all fresh and good.There is none there na di maganda.All for picking". I answered "I thought i would see someone at the end of your crops,my lord wala na pala".Each steps to perfection na hinahanap ko is a step to nothingness.I have met someone in my path but I did let him go.Believing na there is someone better in the end of your field" God said, "Im sorry my child,but you have to face reality.I have given you enough time to choose.Face the consequences." Then I said, " i’m sorry that i was’nt brave enough to raise my hand in the middle of the field and commit myself to someone. I was not ready to face the challenges of life with someone I thought was of lesser value than me…I’m sorry!".
Nagising akong umiiyak,saying sorry to god and to my life. Then I realize that God is giving me another chance to choose, but not in his field but in the fields of uncertainty.Now Im looking at the one looking at me straight eyed wondering if he is the one.What is the meaning of all my efforts and wealth,I may become the best doctor but to whom will i share my care and love for all the days of my life.
Explore God’s field.But please respect other field.In the end, only three things matter most: how fully you lived,how deeply you love, and how gracefully you’ve let go things not meant for you.
